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Late night blogging #4

Because that's how cold it is in my house.

Telling you now, this is gonna be a really random blog... I'm probably awake because my sleeping pattern is pretty messed up at the moment, even more than usual. Anyways since it's the last week of classes, today was my last Tuesday, I'm only mentioning this because this semester was Two Class Tuesday which I really enjoyed. However, I totally didn't even have a two class Tuesday today, since I didn't go to my first class today. Soo lame, you know those days when it's so cold you don't want to wake up so you stay in bed, then next thing you know it's like 45 min after... yeah that was today, well it's been like that the past few days ha... I even tried to give myself motivation to wake up early for class today, which was so lame... it was to put on makeup for school tomorrow (I normally don't put on makeup, actually I normally don't dress up for school...), so I would have to be able to wake up early to put it on... Total fail. At least with me leaving an hour later than usual, I did something quite helpful... I woke up my sister haha, and she totally was running late and she had an exam this morning. So my waking up late wasn't totally useless...

It was a weird Tuesday, I felt like I didn't really have to go to class today. In German class we were suppose to take a makeup quiz to replace our lowest score and then get our first draft back but, he wasn't done editing them. And my quiz scores are pretty decent, so whatever. I had the whole idea in my head, I shouldn't have came to school today... but that would just be me being lazy and laziness is so not God glorifying.

Random Post, Random List
1. I'M FREEZING.
2. This week is going by so slow.
3. I don't really like chick flicks. HAHA.
4. I've been watching old videos lately.
5. I'm sad that there's no bible study tomorrow haha, and that I missed the last C&C bible study of the year haha.
6. It's okay, I can use the time to spend in my own personal studies in the Word.
7. Thinking of replaying Kingdom Hearts 2 over break, or finish Ace Attorney: Trials and Tribulations.
8. Winter break... patiently waiting.

I totally shouldn't be on here.

I can't help it, cause I don't know what else I need to know for tomorrows lab practicum... Man, totally just have to hang on for two more weeks, til winter break.. well that is, only if the Lord hasn't called me home by then. Another opportunity to practice that patience again.

So today, I as I was freezing in my room while studying; I decided to, turn on a heater in my room, then go eat dinner which happened to be my favorite fried fish and rice (no, really) and make some hot tea, cause I dislike the cold and love tea aha. Anyways, then after I prayed and started eating, I realized while freezing, that I was eating my favorite food, drinking uhh I guess you can say a favorite drink, and had a heater warming up my room as I eat and drink this wonderful meal haha and that was when I totally felt grateful. I mean here I am hungry, freezing in cold weather while studying for a final; then I just see God's providence right in front of my face.

I'm hungry, and I've been provided food on the table once again.
I'm freezing, but I'm blessed with a roof over my head and a heater!
I'm studying for a final, which means I've been given an opportunity to go to college.

Like seriously, the Lord has been so gracious to me and I'm very glad that He (not myself, but Him. *Psalm 16:2) has been reminding me that He has. It reminded me something that the senior pastor at my local church (www.sbcac.org), Pastor Felix said while preaching two Sundays ago, I remember him saying something along the lines of "God sent us problems so we will praise Him." So there I was with problems somewhat, and then totally praising Him! An amazing God, He is. Sorry I can't think of a verse at the moment that totally goes with His providence, forgive me. But, how bout you share a verse that does (: I'd totally appreciate it. I can't really think straight right now, and yes I know it's not an excuse... Okay, I should get back to studying... or sleep ha.

Soli Deo Gloria!

Late night blogging #3

Well it's not that late, but this is just another random post. So I'm totally listening to a symphony video right now..


The film score for this movie is so pretty!

Admit it, you guys agree. At 3:38 is the best part! Makes me want to get a new A-string even more... not like it's gonna make me sound like the violins in this video though, especially at 1:06.

Man, that John Williams is one talented dude. However I know someone who is beyond greater than anyone and above all. Yes, Yahweh himself, who I just want to praise for totally humbling me on Monday night. Even though school has gotten quite serious with all the work and challenges given to me, a few minutes after I started to somewhat cry... and I usually don't cry, I was able to find comfort in my heavenly Father, through His Word.

Consider it all joy, my brethren, when you encounter various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces endurance. And let endurance have its perfect result, so that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing... Blessed is a man who perseveres under trial; for once he has been approved, he will receive the crown of life which the Lord has promised to those who love Him. Let no one say when he is tempted, “I am being tempted by God”; for God cannot be tempted by evil, and He Himself does not tempt anyone. But each one is tempted when he is carried away and enticed by his own lust. - James 1:2-4,12-15

What would giving up and not trying anymore get me? I would just be relying on myself to get through trials, basically having faith in myself... which is totally useless, because I haven't done anything. Unlike Christ, He has done something. Through His death and resurrection, God's elect has been saved from God's wrath. Just as the apostle Paul writes in his lovely letter to the church in Ephesus, " For by grace you have been saved through faith; and that not of yourselves, it is the gift of God..." (Ephesians 2:8) and this is why I don't have faith in myself, but in Christ, and this is why through trials, I have joy because the situation where I am at now, I can use it to give glory to God. You see, I wanted to give up and quit for my own selfish wants; although I wouldn't be bearing the image of God. Christ who was the exact replica of the image of God, didn't quit on anything, the only thing He gave up was His life, for His body (or the universal church)! What a gracious Lord we have! And I just praise Him for reminding me of all of this and for allowing me to strengthen my faith by bringing such a trial (nothing serious) into my life. So, I ask for prayers with school not only for me, but for everyone else in school. Finals are coming up, and winter break is almost here! Also if anyone has any prayer requests, let me know! I'll gladly pray for you.

Wowww... I don't know how I went from Jurassic Park to prayer requests... haha okay, well whatever. Goodnight!

Number 11.

Aww man, I missed it by a minute.. I normally write out the date but it's still 11:12 11/11/2011 ... haha it's okay. Today isn't really significant for me, but 11 just happens to be my favorite number. Ever since elementary school, I remember saying that 11 was my favorite number because my birthday was in November and it's the 11th month of the year and since my birthday is 11/01/1991, I remember thinking if 1 should be my favorite number instead, but I thought that it was too simple and boring for a favorite number. Back then, I liked to have unique favorite things, so all the things that have been my favorite since elementary probably has some weird reasoning behind it. So I leave you tonight with a list.

11 favorites.
1. Eleven is my favorite number.
2. Green is my favorite color.
3. James is my favorite book of the Bible so far... However all the books of the Bible are good, even though I haven't read all of it...
4. Dragon Ball Z is my favorite Cartoon.
5. Trunks is my favorite Character. Hence why my dog was named after him.
6. Oceans Eleven is my favorite movie all time. Just realized that it had Eleven in it's title..
7. The Lion King is my favorite Disney movie.
8. The Violin is my favorite instrument. Not trying to be biased, but I love the sound of one.
9. Nitrogen is my favorite element.
10. Seafood is my favorite type of food.
11. Heist movies are my favorite type of movies.

Ich weiß nicht einen Titel.

Actually finding time to write on here! Having no 8am ochem lab tomorrow, and also finding out my 11 am inorganic lecture is cancelled for tomorrow, totally is a factor to me on here right now. 8am everyday is really hard on my body, but nonetheless school is still a blessing. I seriously don't know how to say all the things I want to say... probably gonna end up with a list hah. Opportunities to share the Gospel with classmates, it's quite exciting, especially when they initiate talking about the Bible or God or Church. The transitioning process, it's a bittersweet feeling, but it's God's will not mine. Trusting in the Lord, prayer, and finding comfort in Him no one else or nothing else. Philippians 4:5-7. Yes, it's that same passage that's been showing up everywhere! Man, why is it so hard to express feelings? However, I can say that I'm quite excited for the rest of this week (:

Today and thoughts.
1. Two class Tuesday.
2. German Midterm.
3. Starbucks with Sam, Loris and Micah.
4. Ephesians midterm studying.
5. Only class tomorrow is Calc.
6. Set.
7. I don't even know what I wanted to say earlier.
8. Feels good that I actually had to arrange my parking for street-sweeping, cause I'll still be home at 8 hahaha.
9. Pursue holiness. Focus on Christ. Philippians 3:13-14. Hebrews 12:1-3
10. Patience.
11. Discipline.
12. Ich mag Deutsch sprechen.

Note to self. Oh and you too.

Pursue holiness. Please God, not man.

No matter how many times I say this, it's never going to express how thankful I really am. I know I say this everywhere, all the time, but thank you God, for your mercy and grace.

2 months

I knew today was the 26th after writing it a couple of times for class today, but I barely realized tonight that it's the 26th! Haha 2 months since Nanay left this earth, and 2 months that she's worshiping God and rejoicing in heaven with Christ and all our other brothers and sisters. Miss you Nanay!

I love my sisters in Christ

Haha super random, but me and Sam were bored. Love you Jeremae

Supposed to be doing homework

So I'm supposed to be doing homework right now, but I'm a little distracted haha. I was singing praise songs then I came across a song, that I don't have on my computer (like the track) and so I youtubed it and sang along. Do you guys ever just sing songs and don't really listen to the lyrics? Well, I was doing that with this particular song, I knew the main picture of it, but to actually just hear what the words are saying. After hearing the song in 3 different versions or covers, the 3rd version hit me pretty bad hahaha. I don't know if it was because it was a lot slower, or acoustic or whatever but it was, I seriously just got distracted even more.

Unashamed
I have not much
To offer You
Not near what You deserve
But still I come
Because Your cross
Has placed in me my worth

Oh, Christ my King
Of sympathy
Whose wounds secure my peace
Your grace extends
To call me friend
Your mercy sets me free

And I know I'm weak
I know I'm unworthy
To call upon Your name
But because of grace
Because of Your mercy
I stand here unashamed

I can't explain
This kind of love
I'm humbled and amazed
That You'd come down
From heavens heights
And greet me face to face

Here I am at Your feet
In my brokeness complete



Wow. This song is super humbling, because I truly do not deserve anything, I know I say this all the time, but I say it because it's true and I want you to know the same thing goes for you. "But God, being so rich in mercy, because of the great love with which he loved us, even when we were dead in our trespasses, made us alive together with Christ --by grace you have been saved-- and raised us up with him and seated us with him in the heavenly places in Christ Jesus" - Ephesians 2:4-7

Although.

So much to do, why am I so happy?

Although
Although I am exhausted
I am still up and awake,
Although I am taking more units than I have ever took
I am adding another two units to take ,
Although I want to take my required classes and graduate
I am taking a class that doesn't go toward my degree,
Although I have so much homework and studying to do
I am on my laptop writing a blog for you to see,
Although I've lost my lovely travel mug that I use for tea
I am still able to go on through the day,
Although I am a sinner
I am saved from sin through the death that only Jesus Christ could pay
Although I have so many worries in my life,
I have peace in my heart and rejoice in the Lord for his grace.


So why am I so happy with so much homework, studying, and things to do? Because I have received something that I don't deserve, and there is nothing I can do to deserve it. But yet I still, I receive this wonderful, glorious, holy gift. So yeah, I always have a reason to so happy; I gotta keep reminding myself that.

Lord, you truly are amazing. With all the worldly distractions you open my eyes and allow me to just focus on you. Something only you could do Lord, and I praise you for it, for all of it.

Nostalgia? Not quite.

So I've been going through plenty of middle school things, such as pictures, blog posts, and mixed CDs that I made back then. well more of 8th grade. It's weird, but it just brings back so many different feelings. There were so many times where I caught myself laughing at my embarrassing self, I mean c'mon it's middle school. After reading my old xanga posts, I constantly posted about how being in orchestra was my favorite thing in school. One thing I remember about orchestra in 8th grade, was 4 girls sitting next to each other in a row... we would talk about boys A LOT haha, so bad... but true. I especially loved being in orchestra when the orchestra and band got to work together for concerts, assemblies, festivals, field trips and stuff, the BEST. Don't get me wrong, I still enjoyed the other things about 8th grade like how everyone all hung out at the same spot at lunch, everyone in class knew each other, having really chill teachers, ahh there's so many things about it that I enjoyed. I'm not gonna lie, I was way more social then, than I am now... haha I would always be on the phone with someone, and be on aim talking to a couple of people, playing computer games with people, going to the mall every Friday, meeting new people every week, MySpace, etc. it's crazy. Because now I'm not totally not like that, I barely talk on the phone, I rarely hangout with friends, I don't go on aim as much, and I don't play computer games. So weird... After reading most of my 8th grade xanga posts, it's funny how one little thing could make me super emotional back then. Then today getting a random phone call from a friend I met and got super close to in 8th grade totally couldn't have came at a better time haha. Totally reminisced and talked about how ridiculous we acted back then. It felt good, getting to discuss funny things, and you know simply talking about "back then". I love it when someone tells you a really funny story and you were in it, but totally forgot about it, I mean friends are quite helpful in that department. I highly recommended you to reminisce with someone else instead of doing it alone, it really adds more umph to the moment haha.

I find it very odd how every time middle school comes up in a conversation today, I will always say "I hated middle school." and I probably didn't like it because looking back at me back then, I was embarrassed of the things I did, thought, and the person I was. I think that I say that, I hated middle school is because of my pride; and looking back, seeing me act so foolishly, was something I was never wanted to think about since it hurt my ego. However this time my looking back was different, I actually said out loud, "I miss middle school." Although I had embarrassing moments I don't care anymore, that's a really big part of middle school haha, and I praise God for blessing me with such a wonderful experience and blessing me with 3 years of embarrassing moments, crushes, nonsense emotions, tantrums, and basically growing up. Remembering how I said that I hated middle school, totally just allowed me to see how prideful I am, there's nothing in my life that I regret because everything that has happened to me has been a blessing from God, because my life alone is already a gift from God, and the fact that Christ has allowed all of this to happen truly humbles me. Yes today, I did say "I wish I could go back to 8th grade" but I am not yearning for the past. I am perfectly fine with my life now, although at times it may not seem like it, I am thankful for EVERYTHING that God has graciously given me.

Things to help you when reminiscing about the past.
1. Don't do it alone, it's way better to reminisce with someone else.
2. Look through everything during that time, pictures, blogs, journal entries, letters, music, etc.
3. Remember that God is sovereign and things are the way things are today.
4. Enjoy!
5. Glorify God. Do it all the time. 1 Corinthians 10:31.

List #12

Sapitans. Nanay's children and their spouses, grandchildren and greatgrandchildren
Past few weeks or so
1. July 26, 2011. My grandma went home to the LORD and is now enjoying being in His presence.
2. Lots of Sapitan and Genido company.
3. My Kaka Delfin is in California again for 2 more weeks!
4. My Dad is finally back! Only God knows for how long haha, seriously.
5. This past week I think I've spent more time at Poppy than my own house.
6. Plenty of time spent with Ate, Kuya, Ate Rosalie and Jane.
7. Watched old home videos. Really good stuff.
8. Spent a lot of time at forest lawn for 4 days.
9. Losing my voice for the viewings haha.
10. Wearing black and white for 4 days!
11. Witnessing to my family, but realized I need to do a better job.
12. N64'ed!
13. Ended summer school and finally started summer!
14. Mexican candy!
15. My dad's driving..
16. Realizing what a blessing family is to me.
17. Got to hangout with high school friends.
18. Sheba's going to Germany!
19. 90s are all that.
20. Can finally continue watching Dragon Ball GT.
21. A haircut I was not expecting haha.

I can't really remember the past few weeks anyways or even months since I haven't blogged in a while. This past week alone as been a little crazy, but God has been so gracious to me and my family and I just praise Him for all of it.

Lately.

Wow this past few weeks have been great.

I would love to blog about resolved but I wouldn't even know how to start. All I can really say about Resolved was that it was truly a blessing, and super convicting. Praise the LORD for such gifted speakers, and brothers and sisters that made it all possible.

This week is my final week for my chemistry summer class, final's on Thursday. Let's so how all of this goes... Then next week starts my 3 week poli sci class. Then I'm free of csulb til Fall. Praise God for everything, no seriously.

I'll leave you guys with a song.

A little bit caught up.

Wow, I just got caught up in looking at bikes... A reason I started looking up bikes stuff was because my bike tire's aren't flat anymore thanks to the cousin Harvey. I'm not blaming him for me losing track of the time though! Now I'm just excited to ride my bike. I have a craving to go on a bike ride, LEZGO! Okay, goodnight.

By the way Resolved is in ONE more day!

Summer session 1, week 2.

Class is okay so far. The only think I don't understand is how I can wake up for 8 AM classes during fall and spring, but I have a hard time waking up for a 9Am class for summer. Haha.

Things I need to STOP doing
1. Selfishness
2. Sleeping late for no reason
3. Split-ending
4. Buying things I wouldn't normally buy or use.
5. Getting distracted
6. Being lazy/Slothfulness

Debussy

Clair de Lune - a movement from the Suite bergamasque. One of my favorites
Ahhh this movement is so beautiful; the distinct sound of every instrument wooo super wonderfullll! Makes me miss playing in an orchestra, especially in a symphony even though it wasn't as professional as the Philadelphia Orchestra. After watching this video I tried playing it on Violin, wowww... that's what happens when you stop playing violin hah. This video was a gateway video which made me look up other videos of compositions... made me so amazed. I'll start posting them randomly, this should happen because I'm working on following through on what I say I'm going to do.

List #11

Do my nails camouflage with my walls?
11 may be my favorite number, but this isn't a special list.
1. Hey, my hair is pretty long now (:
2. Exodus
3. Badminton tomorrow! I'm exciteddd.
4. Vacuum my room and the hallway.
5. Sweep the kitchen and living room.
6. Self-control.
7. GYM!
8. Random urge to spend -__-"
9. Dust my room
10. Stop split-ending.
11. Get ready for summer school...
12. Target visit soon!
13. It's already Friday.
14. Memorial day weekend then summer school starts.
15. 2006 Dallas and Miami finals rematch. Even though totally different teams from then.

We are a pillar and supporter of the truth in God's house. (1 Timothy 3:15) So live like a supporter of God.

Summer's here!

Pimples courtesy of finals week.
By the way, first picture of Summer 2011!
Yeee, chillin' with Hamtaro in my pantulog, retainers, and in my bed before 12 yeaaah buddy. Anyways, I have so many emotions going on right now, from excited, happy, somewhat shocked, exhausted, but most of all relieved. No exams, studying, labs, etc to worry about... even if it's only for a week and something days. Two summer classes in two sessions isn't as bad as a 15 unit semester, so I still have a reason to enjoy my summer. Praise the Lord for getting me through another year in college; even with all the time school took away from my time with Him, He never left me. What can I say, God is good.

Woooo, it's not even 12 yet and I'm already in bed, retainers and everything, feels so good after sleeping early morning this every day this past week.

List #10

Late night list
1. Why hello book of James, written by James the half brother of Jesus.
2. Finals studying nonsense.
3. A few changes are coming up. But it's okay because I trust in the LORD, who is sovereign.
4. His will, not mines. For His glory, not anything/anyone else.
5. 6 more days.
6. 1 Corinthians 9:23.
7. Taking forever to finish All of Grace.
8. Trig identities integrals, and series approximations.
9. Prayer.
10. Patience.
11. Joy.
12. Focus.

I do it all for the sake of the gospel, that I may share with them in its blessings.

- 1 Corinthians 9:22