Note to self. Oh and you too.

Pursue holiness. Please God, not man.

No matter how many times I say this, it's never going to express how thankful I really am. I know I say this everywhere, all the time, but thank you God, for your mercy and grace.

2 months

I knew today was the 26th after writing it a couple of times for class today, but I barely realized tonight that it's the 26th! Haha 2 months since Nanay left this earth, and 2 months that she's worshiping God and rejoicing in heaven with Christ and all our other brothers and sisters. Miss you Nanay!

I love my sisters in Christ

Haha super random, but me and Sam were bored. Love you Jeremae

Supposed to be doing homework

So I'm supposed to be doing homework right now, but I'm a little distracted haha. I was singing praise songs then I came across a song, that I don't have on my computer (like the track) and so I youtubed it and sang along. Do you guys ever just sing songs and don't really listen to the lyrics? Well, I was doing that with this particular song, I knew the main picture of it, but to actually just hear what the words are saying. After hearing the song in 3 different versions or covers, the 3rd version hit me pretty bad hahaha. I don't know if it was because it was a lot slower, or acoustic or whatever but it was, I seriously just got distracted even more.

Unashamed
I have not much
To offer You
Not near what You deserve
But still I come
Because Your cross
Has placed in me my worth

Oh, Christ my King
Of sympathy
Whose wounds secure my peace
Your grace extends
To call me friend
Your mercy sets me free

And I know I'm weak
I know I'm unworthy
To call upon Your name
But because of grace
Because of Your mercy
I stand here unashamed

I can't explain
This kind of love
I'm humbled and amazed
That You'd come down
From heavens heights
And greet me face to face

Here I am at Your feet
In my brokeness complete



Wow. This song is super humbling, because I truly do not deserve anything, I know I say this all the time, but I say it because it's true and I want you to know the same thing goes for you. "But God, being so rich in mercy, because of the great love with which he loved us, even when we were dead in our trespasses, made us alive together with Christ --by grace you have been saved-- and raised us up with him and seated us with him in the heavenly places in Christ Jesus" - Ephesians 2:4-7

Although.

So much to do, why am I so happy?

Although
Although I am exhausted
I am still up and awake,
Although I am taking more units than I have ever took
I am adding another two units to take ,
Although I want to take my required classes and graduate
I am taking a class that doesn't go toward my degree,
Although I have so much homework and studying to do
I am on my laptop writing a blog for you to see,
Although I've lost my lovely travel mug that I use for tea
I am still able to go on through the day,
Although I am a sinner
I am saved from sin through the death that only Jesus Christ could pay
Although I have so many worries in my life,
I have peace in my heart and rejoice in the Lord for his grace.


So why am I so happy with so much homework, studying, and things to do? Because I have received something that I don't deserve, and there is nothing I can do to deserve it. But yet I still, I receive this wonderful, glorious, holy gift. So yeah, I always have a reason to so happy; I gotta keep reminding myself that.

Lord, you truly are amazing. With all the worldly distractions you open my eyes and allow me to just focus on you. Something only you could do Lord, and I praise you for it, for all of it.