in a depression myself

my friends are a mess, my grades are a mess, my badminton game is a mess, my room is a mess, my whole life is a mess . soo much stuff is going on, this whole waiting list thing, is not making my life any easier, drama going around, test coming up, like how much can a girl take ?

but honestly i know the waiting list junk started off as a joke, but now guys are actually doing something. ******, gosh i dont know i treat him the same but its still like awkward . ******, i dont even know this kid &now he barely talks to me but hey he said something to me yesterday . i give them both props for coming up to me haha . thats all i know, *** is soo making up random names for me . okay ill admit i added an extra one to her name, but its only one, compared to like adding five ?

badminton drama is not going away, i know im a good friend, &im trying to keep it that way, but they're pushing it . im not gonna end up being a jerk, like she is to me . if shes gonna have me at one place, when she doesn't think i belong there, why not say it to my face ? like seriously ill take the brutal truth over trippy lies, any day .